your like my own piece of sunshine

do you choke on all your lies?

or do they just come naturally?

little girl 14 flippin through a magazine 

says she wants to look that way 

but her hair isn’t straight, her body isn’t fake and shes always felt overweight

little girl 14 i wish that you could see, that 

beauty is within your heart

and you were made with such care 

you skin, your body, and your hair are perfect just the way they are 

and there could never be a more beautiful you 

define the lies, disguises, and hoops they make you jump through 

you were made to fill a purpose that only you can do 

so there can never be a more beautiful you 

little girl 21 the things that you’ve already done

anything to get ahead

and you say you’ve got a man but hes got another plan

only wants what you’ll do instead 

but little girl 21 you never thought that this would come

you’ll starve yourself to play the part

but little girl 21 i can promise you theres a man whos love is true

he’ll treat you like the jewel you are

there can never be a more beautiful you

define the lies, disguises, and hoops they make you jump through

you were made to fill a purpose that only you can do

so there can never be a more beautiful you

so turn around, your not too far

to back away

be who you are

to change your path

go another way 

its not to late

you can be saved

if you feel depressed with past regrets 

the shameful nights hope to forget 

can disappear 

they can all be washed away 

by the one who’s strong 

can right your wrongs can rid your fears dry all your tears

can change the way you see this big world

he will take your dark distorted view 

and again you will see through the eyes of a little girl

that there can never be a more beautiful you 

you know those nights where you do something completly spur of the moment 

not because your drunk but just randomly 

well tonight i got my nose pierced 

love it 

<3

that is all

is absolutely one of the hardest things i have ever dealt with 

put on your brave face and smile for the pictures, laugh at the jokes and pretend its all okay…

but inside i’m falling apart and inside i wanna tell you that you made a mistake that this isn’t whats best for us. 

i loved you with all my heart, I would have given you anything and everything - do you understand that?? do you get that you had it all and you just decided it was too much work and so you gave it up!?! do you even realize what you have done? I want nothing more than to be with you

I’m sorry I pushed things, i’m sorry i made you think you wern’t enough 

id take it all back in a heartbeat if it meant you would stay 

i know this is personal 

but he will never see it and i had to say it somehow and he doesn’t wanna hear it 

as much as that kills me…

done 

this hurts alot 

its time to be strong 

pray for me

its a new year and i’ve made the decision this year not to make any resolutions, I mean no one keeps them anyway - just the word resolution could basically mean half ass promise. (excuse the language please) So instead of resolutions I’m simply gonna work on being happy with who I am and where I am. Its okay if I don’t look like a model in a bikini and it’s okay if I have a little bit of a sweet tooth. And its okay if i don’t get everything done, if the rooms a little messy or I leave the dishes for the next day. Oh and its okay if I’m a little late responding to some things :)

A lot of people have different opinions on what creates happiness but i think that it varies from person to person and so instead of placing hope in materialistic values I will work on placing it in God. Instead of letting my anger and worry grow on and on I will work on letting it go and running instead of getting frustrated (I know its not fool proof but worth a shot right) I will pray about things more than I talk about them. I will create and draw and cook and learn. 2012 will be a beautiful year.

And so for 2012 I did not make resolutions I did not tell myself something unreliastic. I did not think that all of a sudden i’d be working out twice a day or only eating vegetables or keeping the house perfect or cutting out something bad blah blah blah. No instead I have set goals for myself, they are small and yet huge. 

If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.
— Winnie the Pooh